Indecisive.

Oh Em Gee.
I have 58 days until the 2011 GNC IFBB North American Championships.
Cue panic attack…

This is not good, and I’m debating postponing my first attempt at Women’s Physique.
I know, I know, not cool.. I mean really, this is possibly the only time I’ll ever be this close to a Pro Card, so why not, right?

Wrong.

I am not ready, and I am beginning to have my doubts as to being ready in 8 weeks.
I’m too small to make my WP debut in 8 weeks; I weighed in at 114lb last night, 6lbs short of my goal weight for June 30.  I need to gain muscle mass, and it’s not happening as quickly as I had hoped.  I don’t know what to do… I really don’t want to spend a small fortune (at the very least this one will run about $300) on a show if I know I have no chance – I’ve done that enough as it is.  I could wait until next year, when WP is in all NPC shows; that gives me more time to grow before I have to cut down again, but that also takes away the aspect of doing a National Level Show without pre-qualifying.

FML.

Have you had to make an impossible decision lately? How did you do it?
I feel  like I’m in an endless battle with myself and I don’t know what to do…

I need to make a decision ASAP though, if I’m doing the show I need to get my diet in order for 8 weeks out, and I need to fill out my application and make hotel arrangements.  And I need to pick a song for my routine, and maybe order a new suit.

I’m not going to lie, I’m not ready to give up peanut butter and oatmeal and fruit and other assorted delicacies again, I’ve only been off season for 2 ½ months.. It’s just not fair!

What delicacy (or delicacies) could you not bear to give up? And would you for the sake of looking “good” on stage?

OK, thank you for letting me get that off my chest!
I know I’m missing some workouts.. A less-than-impressive Leg Day on Tuesday and Shoulders from last night.. I’ll get them on here ASAP, I promise!

Have a beautiful day fellow bloggers!
And give me your 2 cents on this… I’m completely at a loss.

Leg Day is My Favorite Day!

Happy Thursday!

Its finally Leg Day, and I'm super excited to tear my legs apart.
Free squats, Extensions, Romanian Deadlifts, In & Out Squats (my new obsession), Hamstring Curls, Calve Raises, and Lunges with 50ish pounds.
Maybe some walking on an incline or a round on the bike to end it all, just for the hell of it.

I'm still working on this mass-gaining thing, which is way more stressful than I thought. I'm at my heaviest currently (115) and would LOVE to make 120 before cutting time.  If I make my first Physique show at 110-112 and 5% I'll be stoked!
:-)

Breakfast today was a Protein Pancake and 1/2 a grapefruit (I'm cycling macros and today is super low fat day 4 of 6 - can't wait till I can go back to the normal 20% as opposed to today's whopping 2.75%).

I'm using this off season to plan with some different cycling strategies, and this was an interesting one I found..
Cycle 4-6 day of zero-low dietary fat to trick your body into burning its own fat stores.
Do not use this for more than a week though, first of all your body's smarter than that and will figure out your plan!
And secondly, you NEED fat (like I said, 20% of my calories usually come from fat), it's plain unhealthy to go this low for too long.
Not to mention, it SUCKS. :-)

Anyway, Protein Pancakes..

1/2 Cup Liquid Egg Whites

2 Scoops VPX SRO Zero Carb (also ZERO fat!) Graham Cracker

Cinnamon to taste

Top with Jelly (I like Polamer's Sugarfree with Fiber)

Cook like a pancake, enjoy!

Stats (Pancake ONLY):

230 Calories

0 grams Fat 7 grams Carbs 3 grams Fiber 52 grams Protein